Friday, October 2, 2009


WELL, ATLEAST NAKANTA NYA YUN WITH CONVICTION.. kung ako yung andun.. the moment na nagkamali ako, baka nagkolap na ko.. hahahaha!!!



SEMPLANG QUEEN>> feelingera kasi.. nyakhak!!


welcome to our country. people here are quite healthy. each weighing not less than a thousand pounds. everybody loves meat.french fries is the only vegetable here. no one knows what a squash is. and what the hell is that thing you call stew? duh! people here don't know that garbage. look around and you'll see what i mean.
we can smell the future approaching. scientists will discover new kinds of plants. plants that bear ready to eat burgers and pizzas. see how we can save, we don't have to water them. pick any food in your own drive thru garden. MSG, fat and cholesterol free. no need to cook. no need to wash. this will be a break through technology and will be the best of all time. no more hunger. people will get fatter, healthier. no more death then. imagine, a world full of healthy people. a world full of burgers, pizzas, coke and all that jazz!
come on, suit yourself. can smell the patty? don't you have this in your own home? can you see the buffet over there? pizza, burger and coke everywhere. serve yourself, eat all you can.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009


What happened to our country recently definitely added a new mark in our history. This is so far since the last four decades, the strongest, mightiest thypoon we have faced. Ondoy left our country in a rubble, totally damaged and it so much looks impossible to renovate. It was so hard to think that in just 6 hours, a one-month amount of rain fell and took a lot of lives.

I was, at that time, fighting the current of the flood just to get my self to work. The flood reached my thigh and I was soaking wet all the way up. The rain pelting my skin hurt and I had no choice but to continue waddling through the waters because I could not turn back anymore. There are no ways of getting on a jeepney or taxi. I was scared because I could have gotten electrocuted by the water. The MRT for SLEX was under construction and wires were scattered on the pavement.  When I reached my office building, I was relieved, felt myself and was happy realizing that I was alive and safe. I finished work and got home. The flood, gone.

I saw on TV what happened in greater Manila. Makati and Marikina were so flooded. So are Pasig, Antipolo and Bulacan. A lot of lives had been taken and still a lot of people are missing. When the flood settled, a thick brown mud was left on the pavement. What was left with the people's things, houses and cars were just like toys dipped in mud. What was once the business center of the Philippines, Makati, became a swamp in six hours. It was such a horrible sight. It looked like doomsday. I remembered our trip to Bulacan. My daughter was so delighted seing the cows, horses and goats running and eating in the green feilds. Will we ever see them again the next time we go there? I remembered my brother, he lives in Pasig and all his important things were left there. So are his expensive clothes and shoes that he has earned for while he was working. The things he never had in his life when he was young. All gone.

I saw the video of people struggling to keep their children safe, themselves awake and ready, their families together. Those people who were hoping to be rescued, be given food if not rescued or atleast be seen on TV that they were safe, alive or in danger. It pains me in the heart to see these people asking for help but obviously, due to lack of facilities, they could not be. The least they could was to pray that they be helped, rescued and be put to safety. I felt sad and lucky at the same time. Atleast we never had to see the brown mud that the flood left. The flood I waddled into was just purely water and subsided right away after the rain. It did not reach even the floor of our house. I would like to thank God because we are all alive. My brother is safe and so as his family. They have evacuated right away.
PAG-ASA said that had the dropper radar arrived at first, they could have known how much rain Ondoy was to bring. They could have alarmed the people and told them to evacuate right away. But the dropper radar they have ordered abroad is still not being recieved. It's not their fault but still, the people could not help but put a blame on them. A new LPA had been seen approaching our area of responsibility. Will this be as strong as Ondoy? Or stronger? People have not fully recovered yet from what Ondoy had left, and now we are fearing yet another typhoon? Is this a reminder for us to take care of our nature moving forward? Is this a payback? If this is, will we ever learn? This is so much to bear. Let us help other people recover and stand up. Let us help them survive. This is not the time to show off. This is not the time to flaunt that you have donated 10 sacks of rice, 20 boxes of mineral water or 1 million pesos cash pledge. This is the time for prayer and unwavering faith. Let us pray for the people who have lost their lives and those who are still missing. Let us pray for the Earth. For the Philippines. For the whole world.

Friday, September 25, 2009


ENGLISH.. why are we so "trying hard" to use this language? Filipino people are so different from people from other country. we are so conscious about how we speak English while the people that we are talking to care less about how we say the words. we are so afraid to commit mistakes while we laugh at our fellow people who cannot speak the language fluently. we also laugh at Filipino people coming from Visaya and Mindanao regions. why? what's the difference? we cannot speak their dialect yet we are trying so hard to be very good in the English language. isn't this "colonial mentality?" how come that we strive to be perfect speaking this foreign language and we pay so much just to learn Italian, German, French and Spanish but we don't know how to speak our own language fluently. had Rizal been alive, he would have kicked us in the ass and tell us to get lost in the forest with all the lions, tigers and all.

does anyone know that the Tagalog word for reading glasses is antipara? maybe someone knows it, but not all of us. i just recently heard of that word. how about the word guryon? it's kite in English. do you know what dagitab means? it's electricity. notebook is actualy "kwaderno" in Tagalog.

we don't know our own language that much. it's a very complicated language. much more complicated than the universal language. Tagalog has a lot of branches, just like science. it is actualy science. the word "mahal" could mean a lot of things. it could mean- costly, pricey, love as noun or love as verb, it could even be a name. i hated my Filipino subject teacher back in elementary and high school days.

i had a spinster teacher back in high school named Mila Gallardo. she was so taken for grated because she was very kind. the kindest proctor you would ever meet in La Huerta School. no one gave attention to her whenever she teaches he major subject. all students, except the nerdy and geeky ones, threw paper all around, ran around the class room or went out of the class room to buy food or just did anything to excuse themselves from taking the subject. i was one of the nerdy ones who would stay with her all through out the time she taught. i must admit, it wasnt beause i love the subject but just because i wanted to show token of appreciation for, despite the fact that 90% of the population of our section already ran away to miss the subject, she was still standing there, teaching us and telling us that FILIPINO or TAGALOG is a very lovely language. i listened in her lesson not because i wanted to learn but because i wanted to pass the exams. i answered her questions not because i wanted to have good recitation grades but because i pitied her for not having anyone else in the room to call because no one else was raising their hands.

it wasn't a tough subject though. what she taught was so easy to learn and keep in mind. it was just that we didn't really want to hear what she wanted to teach us because we thought we already knew everything about the language. we were wrong though, needless to say.

i cannot discuss here what i know about FILIPINO language. it would take so much time or maybe i have already totally forgotten what i learned in school.

i dont want to forget this language. FILIPINO is my native tounge and i want to be more knowledgeable about it than in the universal language. i wish i could take back the time so i could have learned more about my language. i took so much time learning English that sometimes, i am already getting fed up speaking it.

i dont want to forget FILIPINO. or TAGALOG. i am not a real PILIPINO if i don't know my own language. i am incomplete and naked without my native tounge.


what is this place?
i have been wandering for a long time.
been roaming around with no real place to go.
the vortex is sucking me into space.

i fall in and out of consciousness.
my mind is not clear enough
to understand what's happening in front of me.
this sickness is luring me towards the darkness.

i don't want to fall from grace.
emptiness has taken it's place in my heart.
loneliness is my new bestfriend.
i looked at the mirror and i'm without a face.

the turmoil is eating me up inside.
my mind is so messed up.
it's so messed up... help me bring it back together.
i am suffocating from the air of nothingness.

i am strangled by the roots of insanity.
keep me awake, else i'll die..
the vortex is sucking me into space..
 don't let me fall from grace..